One step forward

Assalamualaikum wbt,


It's been a week since the last update.Yet,i'm busy till the last day which means
May 28,somehow i feel something is not right doing the packing and all the stuff
into my 24' luggage.


Nonetheless,i thought maybe the reason why I always keep all the emotion
in my head, i never leave my house in a month.I have never been apart from
parents more than two weeks.But it feel shy to tell my mom 'you know la kan'


Recently,i keep remembering the moment I be in school.All my friend and
all my pals and dudes.My classmates.Ahhh!Memory keep give us painful
eventhough the memory is sweet like a lolipop.


Haha,actually now I'm trying to improve my english.Not trying hard
but it's just fine with listening to english song.Reading english novels.
Oh ya!The most interesting book. Chicken Soup for the Soul.
I bet you read the book.Sure,you will buy it again and again.


Hopefully,everything will goes well.So sudden,now we at the end of
May.Time flies too fast better say.A big whoa i felt impatient to continue
my study. 'tak sabar nak belajar' so grossy isn't?


Pretty well,i felt a lil bit eery plus i'm not so good in friend relationship or
being friendly.Hopefully,they won't say 'eh!itu budak sombong' or at least
i should just smile do i?


But,i just have less than one year from now to concentrate on my study-pure-science
So,i think it won't be hurt if i take 'unpaid leave' on my relax-happy-enjoyable life isn't it?
Hehehe,call me 'budak matrik' is not a crime isn't it?Really-really-in malay version
'tak sabar sungguh-sungguh'


All the time,i pray to Allah for this Matriculation.Thank you Allah for listening my petition.
Always believe Allah Maha Memakbulkan.And now I seek you Allah for give me courage 
inside and out.I seek you Allah for give me some confident and enthusiasm over there.
Tidak ada yang memberikan kejayaan melainkan Allah :)
InsyaAllah,,

I hereby sincerely 'mohon maaf' to all of you out there for all my wrongdoings
'sama ada secara sengaja atau tidak' . Especially to my pals 


Anis.Syira,Shida,"Belaja kat sekolah elok-elok.STPM is waiting to beat you."




Qila,Shima,Zyha "We feel the same feeling.Are we?Hehehe"




Poh ee "At last,i break my promise to treat you.Sorry and study well.I will call you
if i feel down.Boleh ke?

Huhh,realise life must go on.Time wrap tu mana wujud.No turning back or redo or undo.
One step forward as days pass by.Yet, i won't budge or regrat my action whether it 
good or bad.Come hell or high water Allah is enough for me.Sure do,and thanks a lot
to Hlovate for the inspiring.


Keep IMAN in our soul and heart.Nothing will done except under Allah's will.Everything
happen to us just a tiny shot and I have to be strong to become strongest do i?


Lastly,i decide to deactive my FB account for a while or maybe forever.Just for your
information so that you know how to contact me.Just give a call.Aku maksudkan khas
pada kawan-kawan sekolah :) 
Just for your information i repeated.  hehe
Kalau lost contact maknanya tak ada jodoh lagi kan? Kidding ...laa...




All the best fellas,One step forward to grab our dreams :D
May Allah Bless,
Oh ya,I always pray for my pals. 
InsyaAllah 

LBGT

Assalamualaikum wbt,


Fellas?
How are you?
Me?


Sangat baik.Alhamdulillah,masih ada untuk hirup Oxygen kat muka bumi ni.
Ask me my preparation?
Half done.


Enough of it,
LBGT stands for Lesbian,Biseksual,Gay and Transgander
Kalau ikut cerita zaman dahulu kala.Kisah umat Nabi Lut
yang mengamalkan such thing itu Allah turunkan bencana
dan membinasakan kaum Nabi Lut.Wallahualam,,


Tapi,kalau zaman sekarang Allah tak tunjuk terus sangat kan.
Mungkin ada yang perasan mungkin ada yang tidak.
Sebenarnya Malaysia ni macam dah ada perpecahan
antara umat Islam sendiri.Bukan macam dah ada tapi
memang dah terjadi.


Masa aku kerja for three days AEON member tu,
Rasanya adalah dalam sepuluh orang aku jumpa
yang wanita berpewatakan seperti lelaki.Rambut
pacak-pacak yang kalau sekali tengok tapi tak
sekala memang orang akan anggap She's
a men.What the heck?


tapi yang kelakar bila time masuk tandas.
'Lu masuk ladies jugak!' C'mom la....
Bila time balik kena spot check
'Lu di check sama blue wave perempuan' C'mom la...
tang tu sedar pulak yang diri tu perempuan.
Sedar pulak tangan mana yang halal dan haram nak sentuh
sama lu.


Hurm...malas betul nak fikir kenapa jadi macam tu.
Pasal mungkin ia salah satu cara untuk protect diri sendiri.
Atau mungkin ada hormon lelaki terlebih dos dalam badan.
Nauzubillah min zalik.


Doa la minta dijauhkan macam tu.
Aku pon tak ada la girly sangat.
Semua benda nak pink colour ke bulu-bulu-ayam ke.
C'mom la,nak elak untuk jadi girly tu bukan susah.
Tak payah la nak pakai macam lelaki kalau dah tahu
itu haram.


Atau perkataan haram tu lu define as nothing.


Lagi satu,
GAY!!!
Euww!Ini lagi aku tak tahulah nak describe macam mana.
Sorry bro,aku tak benci korang tapi kalau fikir-fikir balik
apa faedah korang jadi perempuan?
Halkum korang tu nak campak mana?
Korang ada rahim ke untuk pregnant?


Bro,muka dah perfect.Kulit lagi cantik dari aku tapi
tulah,mental tak betul.Kau suka sama lelaki yang sama
spesis sama jantina dengan kau apasal bro?Yang lelaki
'jenis tu' pun sama mental problem.Agaknya makin umur
meningkat makin banyak transmitter yang burned out kot.


Ish!Aku tak faham sungguh-sungguh la.
Surat khabar pun satu.Nak siarkan cerita
pasal dorang tu tak payahla berjela-jela.
Tak payah la sampai ke lubang cacing
semua nak keluar.


Kat kawasan perumahan aku ni pun ramai
'Mak Nyah' tengok bentuk pon dah boleh agak
dia lelaki.Dahlah pakaian seksi mengalahkan
pelakon Hindustan.


Anyway,Semoga dapat hidayah kembali.
Sebab kalau dah nama manusia memang
takkan terlepas dari buat dosa.


May Allah Bless :)

Let fate fares You better

Assalamualaikum,

to awak,

Hopefully this will help me.
Untuk lupakan awak.Sebab dalam masa
6 years awak dekat dan saya nampak awak
selalu.Dekat di mata dan dekat di hati.
tapi you never look at me.

It doesn't matter

Awak,untuk lupakan
seseorang macam awak
saya perlu jauhkan diri.
Jauhkan pandangan.
Jauhkan pendengaran
Jauhkan diri saya
dengan segala-gala yang berkaitan
dengan awak.

So,then
I will forget you
For the rest of my life.

But,I have one question for awak.
Kenapa bila kita berhadapan kita tak pernah bercakap?
Even sepatah?

Mungkin awak malu?Err..tak kot.
Mungkin awak tak suka saya.

No explaination,I assume you never like me.
But, it doesn't matter.

Awak,
ikhlas, I hope you happy dengan dia.
Awak tak pernah tahu perasaan saya
jadi biarlah ia kekal seperti itu.

May Allah Bless :)

Assalamualaikum wbt,


Aku bosan jadi kerana itu aku meluangkan masa
di sini.


Air tak selalunya tenang,
kadang kala ia bergelora,
Ombak tak selalunya datang
kadang kala pantai itu bersepi,


Itu sa.ha.ja ingin aku coretkan.
Oh ya!Maybe next week i'll be busy for the J.CARD day.
Work for three days.To find something new.While,all the time
after SPM im just spending my long-long-day at home
without doing not-a-thing besides learning how-to-get-a-P
and learning how-to-become-a-good-wife-to-be.
Mom's lesson,,


22 days to go :)
May Allah Bless :D

Pilihan....ke hadapan

Assalamualaikum wbt,


So,I have been decide,


to go Kolej Matrikulasi Melaka.


Masa depan bukan perkara yang main-main.
Bila harus meletakkan sepenuh keyakinan
pada pilihan anda.Semua perkara ada


pros and cons


You have to get through despite it's hell or heaven.
Despite,thing never be easy like ABC.


Ibarat menarik rambut di dalam tepung.
Perlu berhati-hati,perlu pandai mengambil langkah
agar tepung tidak berselerakan.


Right?


Jadi,bila tiba waktunya semuanya akan dipermudahkan
dengan izin-NYA.Biar masa menentukan segalanya.
Follow the flow.


Hidup bukan terletak di tangan orang lain.
Hidup bukan hanya untuk mencari kejayaan.
Hidup bukan hanya untuk bercanda.


Hidup perlu kesabaran
Hidup perlu ketabahan
kerana hidup di dunia adalah ujian semata-mata.


"Live in this world is just transient shade"


Hehe,am I being too serious,
May Allah Bless :)